Cosmic Ecstasy

“There is almost a sensual longing for communion with others who have a large vision. The immense fulfillment of the friendship between those engaged in furthering the evolution of consciousness has a quality impossible to describe.”― Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

When you decide that you want a change in life, that you’re tired of the distractions and  bullshit, want to tune into what’s important, there are going to be changes.  Count on it.  I’ve heard many talk a good game about wanting enlightenment, but when it was time for the discomfort, or the struggling of the soul to fit in a new container,  then it’s not fun and games anymore.  They’ve quit, and let me be clear, I’m not judging, because truth be told, I’ve temporarily quit this road a few times, myself.   Oh yes, I’ve sat down right on the damn road and refused to move another inch.  FUCK this noise, I thought, uh uh, hurts to much.  Let me please go back to the way that I was (shakes head) but the thing is, past a certain point, there is no going back.  Stay where you are and eventually stagnate or move forward through more uncertain territory.


Now,  passion. I’m hoping if I address it, I can fully understand it.  This is how it seems to work these days.  I meditate, get answers, write, understand answers.  (shrugs) who knew? Passion rides my ass hard.  I feel passion reading something that’s moving my spirit, (Thank you Gabby Bernstein) watching my friend/mentor (Thank you Crystal Andrus) teach her class, talk to like-minded souls, or to my grandpeeps, picking up how excited they are to communicate with me..  It’s a crazy amount of passion.  I feel giddy lighting incense in the kitchen or charging the crystals on my counter, listening to the torrential downpour of the rain on the roof and on the patio.  Writing seems help the energy flow through me, because unless I channel it into something, I can’t focus.

This has happened to me before, meditating, I would get jolts of energy in my sacral chakra, then that ‘sensation’ would travel.  I didn’t know what the fuck was going on.  Let’s be honest, I was raised a good catholic girl, and only deterred from that path as a teenager but still, when it’s in you, it’s in you, so of course I thought there was something wrong with me.   I studied various forms of theology and the origins of belief and spirituality, settling on pantheism, which seemed to fit my needs, but in everything I had read, there was no mention of hot, fiery, goosepimply energy traveling around inside me.  Scared myself stupid, practicing ritual and meditating when I had many different unusual (for me) experiences so I stopped practicing until now.  The extreme passion is back, and as I tiptoe carefully towards reigniting my meditation practice, I realize I must have this outlet for this powerful ardor.

We as a society have been trained not to feel and/or show emotions.  What a disservice to our innate nature.  I say we reclaim our freedom as universal spirits and rock authenticity!

More to come!



(self explanatory lol)—————>Rising Kundalini and Sexual Energy

the book I’m reading for the third time———–>The Universe Has Your Back

the telecourse I’m in ——————>The Emotional Edge – 12 Week Telecourse

Crystal Andrus helped me peel so many layers off, helped me chip the clay off the golden me, making me ripe for Gabby Bernstein’s message.  Both of these dynamic women have FREE classes, programs, meditations, talks etc.  RESEARCH if your ready to live life the way you were made to do.  Don’t just complain about how bad your life is, CHANGE it.  Crystal taught me that there was no one coming to save me, I had to save myself.  It is so true, so that’s what I’m doing for myself and my grandpeeps.  What we do impacts our children, grandchildren, our families!!!  BE THE CHANGE – Ghandi

This is what YOU can do for your loved ones! ———–>Healing Our Family & the Collective


Published by: Shanti Shaharazade

Told to write it all down, I do, finally. It took me from 1991 to now, to surrender to Universe/God/dess (insert name of choice) and to embrace this path with my soul wide open. I love sharing all of my journey with young people to demonstrate that it is possible to choose the light constantly even when face to face with your own darkness. I've used a variety of tools to shed ego's protective barriers like onion layers. I am determined to share the journey, tools and encouragement, being the change I want in the world. If something resonates, touches you, please share, it could do the same for another. Also feel free to share your thoughts, opinions or to voice your disagreement, all points of view are welcome and appreciated, at worst we can agree to disagree. Thank you for stopping by!!! Sat Nam

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2 thoughts on “Cosmic Ecstasy”

  1. There is something to be said about your courageous and healing nature. I am so honored to have been able to watch your journey and chime in here and there. You are such an inspiration, and Im so proud of how far you have come and your will power and strength along the way. I KNEW Id see this day. Thank you for CHOOSING to share the good, the bad and the ugly with me. I LOVE every piece of you!

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    1. You’re an amazing soul, I’m privileged to have been and be a part of your journey. Your love has taught me so much about the true nature of family. Thank you for being you. Thank you for everything. ❤


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