walking down the street from covenent house on 41st bet 9th and 10th avenues, i had just left and was headed to 42nd street and 8th avenue to find my peeps. one day i’m going to come back here and help.
in 91, i was told to ‘write it all down’, but i didn’t want too. kept doing things my (ego) way. experience after experience piling up, trauma after trauma. finally got the memo that no one was going to save me. i had to don my warrior’s garb and be my own shero.
now after a two year bid in and out of psych hospitals, with suicidal depression the door finally manifested and I was free, almost a year ago. i am on a mountaintop in Puerto Rico, going for my BA in psychology (already had my AA in Psych) getting that peice of paper so that i’m ‘qualified’ to help young people.
i want the at risk ones. the ones hardly anyone believes in anymore. the ones that inspire old women to cross the street. who’s language is abhorable. i want them. i was them. i believe in them. i can talk to them, they’ll listen to me, well obvously not all of them but i can reach them. i’ve been doing it anway, always. i have adoptee’s everywhere. it’s my calling and every damn painful trauma i had getting here is well it was my catalyst to uncover my greatness.
self love IS the name of the game, as is surrendering to the flow of the universe, accepting that i am/was never broken. i had continuously been stepping out of alignment, drinking the kool aid of a very sick society.
I am choosing to make love an action word for me and there is nothing i want to do more than to be of service, except perhaps hanging with my five grandpeeps.
i choose to scrub down my family lineage and create some healing and a powerful legacy.
I’ve used a variety of tools to shed ego’s protective barriers like onion layers. I am determined to share the journey, tools and encouragement, being the change I want in the world. If something resonates, touches you, please share, it could do the same for another. Also feel free to share your thoughts, opinions or to voice your disagreement, all points of view are welcome and appreciated, at worst we can agree to disagree. Thank you for stopping by!!!
Sat Nam my lovely! I LOVE YOU, your participation not needed but VERY welcome!